Yearning for a relationship isn’t pathetic…

The information I learned about myself at our amazing weekend still amazes me. And more layers keep peeling off. Specifically, my deep need to feel like I matter and I’m worthy, and that likely I will be programmed to find evidence that I’m a bother and that I don’t matter. ( so great that I can question it when I see/ feel it) 

Another big shift is the feeling that yearning for a relationship is “pathetic” and so I refused to “put it out there” that I’d be open to being set up with someone or to even consider online dating. Happy to report that since that shift in my thought process I have asked friends to keep me in mind if they meet someone great.  It doesn’t feel pathetic at all!! 

It’s rather exciting. In fact tomorrow I’m off on a hike with a guy I met through a friend last night.

….. and I think when I’m solo in my house next time I’m going to just enjoy it instead of yearning for something else.